Tuesday

One of my favorite blogs to read is Steece's Pieces, well yesterday she posted a blog about a little girl named Tuesday and her fight with cancer. All day long Tuesday was on my mind so tonight I took a break from studying to read the blog. http://half12.blogspot.com/ . I read the whole thing. I'm numb and I've never met these people before. I read through their stuggles and their victories bawling the whole way. As I was reading the last entry I looked up at the top of the page and saw that Tuesday died this evening. And since then I haven't stopped crying. How this could happen to a sweet little 2 year old that was fine 6 months ago is beyond me. I can't even imagine what it must feel like for everything to be fine one moment and the next to be fighting cancer in your 2 year old. My heart breaks for this family.
Reading this blog has made me thankful I have two healthy and happy kids. Kids I will never take for granted and kids that will always be the center of my everything. My "new" New Years resolution is to cherish the small stuff. This is something I don't do enough of. I need to write down every silly thing Emilee comes up with and take pictures of all the cute things Lily does. I pray that I will never know the pain that this family is having to deal with and my girls will always be healthy.

Hurray!!!

Granny's back!!!! We are beyond excited that Granny has returned. It's so nice to have her back with us and the girls are already warming up to her. Just thought I'd share our excitement with everyone.

Stay-at-home Mommyhood

I've been out of school for a little over a month now, which means I've been a stay at home mommy. This is something I always wanted to do and I was always so envious of people who could stay home. I've come to realize that I'm not too good at this who staying at home thing. I'm absolutely exhausted. I always knew Granny did alot for us while she was here but I guess I always took it for granted. She's amazing at everything. I don't understand how she can get so much accomplished in one day and I can't seem to finish a task. Yesterday I scrubed our kitchen floors, windexed all the windows, did some laundry and ironed and today you would have never known I did any of that. The back door has dog nose prints all over it, I have a pile of laundry needing to be folded and all the girls stuff to be ironed. Not to mention our dirty clothes basket. I feel like I washed every bottle in America yesterday and there's already more to be washed again. I just can't get a break.
I love my girls more than anything in the world I just think I'm reaching that point where I need some Mommy time. I need my hair cut and colored so back but I can't get in on a weekend for forever and I have no-one to watch the girls during the week. I've been up the past two nights coughing my lungs up and getting about 4 hours of sleep. I need a nap, a hair do and a paid shopping spree without kids. Oh and a maid for a week would be great too. So if anyone knows of a fairy god-mother who can get those things for me please let me know, I'm at my wits ends.
So to all the stay at home moms you have my complete respect. Staying at home is the hardest job in the world and it takes a very patient person to be able to do it. I'm glad I have this opportunity to spend more time with the girls and for the most part I've really enjoyed it, it's just time for a break.

Mealtime drama

The past few nights have been horrible at dinner time. Both my girls are really good eaters, so when they don't eat it's really frustrating to me. With Lily being sick I completely understand why her appetite has changed but Emilee I think is just because she's being stubborn. She's refusing to eat dinner. This is the second night in a row that I'm sending her to bed with no dinner. I feel like such a horrible mom but what else do I do?? It's not that she's not hungry because she is she just doesn't want to eat what I fix. I'm not fixing anything weird and some of the things she even asks for and then I fix it and she won't eat it. It's the most frustrating thing EVER!! And I feel really bad for sending her to bed with nothing to eat, I just don't want her to think she can skip dinner and then get snacks later. I always offer her dinner again after her bath but she always tells me she doesn't want it. O well I guess she'll eat when she's hungry, it still makes me feel bad.

Finally all better!!

The past few weeks have been absolutely misserable in our house. Lily started the week of Christmas with a runny nose that I just assumed was because of her teething. The running nose turned into a horrible cough and extreme fussiness. While it was nice seeing everyone for Christmas it was a very tiring trip. I ended up taking Lily to Cooks Urgent Care in Hurst and they diagosed her with RSV, which I didn't really believe because they didn't do a RSV test and she hadn't been wheezing at all. We still took all the precautions. We came home a day early thinking that that would help her mood but it didn't. Last week she progressively got worse and on Saturday her eyes were so swollen she didn't even look like the same baby. I finally got her into the doctor this past Monday and yes she does have RSV along with an ear infection and pink eye. And all of that on top of teething. So I've been about ready to pull my hair out or trade her in for a happier baby. I swear Lily has cried more in these last few weeks than she has her entire year of life. She started her antibiotics and breathing treatments and I swear she's a new baby. It's so nice to have my sweet Lily back.
So this is my excuse for slacking on all the pictures from Lily's B-day party and Christmas. So as soon as I catch up on all my laundry and house work I'll start posting. Pre-school is tomorrow so hopefully I can do it then.