Our week and the Dr. visit

Well I'm officially a full time student now and it's so much more overwhelming than I had ever imagined. Three out of the five that I'm taking are eight week courses so they move faster than the others. All five involve tons of reading and memorizing. I'm beginning to think I've gotten in to far over my head.

Jackson came down to visit on Wednesday and I think he and Em had a good time playing. It's amazing the difference in play between a boy and a girl. I can definately tell I'm use to little girls. Boys are much rougher and active. But they were both pretty good thought the visit.

Yesterday Casey took Em to the Doctor for her 3 yr. old check up. Well ever since Emilee turned 3 she developed some what of an attitude. Yes, she's always had an attitude but now she's much more voiced. So the Doctor visit didn't go very well, she didn't want to do any of the things the doctor asked her to do (which is very imbarrassing). The doctor asked Emilee to bend over and touch her toes so she could check her spine, she didn't want to at all but ended up giving in. While she was bent over I guess she decided she didn't want to do that any more and jumped up. Well when she did that the Doctors face happened to be right near Emilee's head. To make a very imbarrassing story short, Emilee broke the Doctors nose. I feel so terrible for that doctor and I pray to God my child doesn't get sick because we're not going to go back there.

Well that's our week in a nut shell. Right now I'm hoping Lily will give in and fall asleep so I can study for a little bit. Wishful thinking I know.

Em's birthday weekend

So I'm a little late on posting birthday pictures from Emilee's parties. But I thought better late than never. Em's birthday was Friday August 8th, we really didn't do anything crazy. My mom and sister came down and we opened some presents and mom bought her a cake because she wasn't going to have one at her party (we did dirt pudding).

I know it wasn't Lily's birthday but I couldn't resist this picture.

So the next day we had Em's birthday party with all of her friends. I think for the most part it turned out really well. Emilee had alot of fun. She got tons of new toys. This is probably the first birthday that I asked for toys. Em wasn't much of a toy baby and even up until recently she just wasn't interested.

On Sunday Em left with Marme and Aunt Becky to spend the week in DFW. I missed her like crazy but she had so much fun. Marme took her to Six Flags, a bounce house and to ride on a train. She also had one more party. She keeps asking when her birthday is.

Grab the tissues....

So on my way to work yesterday morning they read this poem. By the second line of the poem I was already in tears. I guess I'll post the poem first and then tell you my feelings....

Dear World:
I bequeath to you today one little girl... in a crispy dress… with two blue eyes... and a happy laugh that ripples all day long... and a flash of light blond hair that bounces in the sun when she runs. I trust you'll treat her well.

She's slipping out of the backyard of my heart this morning...and skipping off down the street to her first day of school. And never again will she be completely mine. Prim and proud she'll wave her young and independent hand this morning and say "Goodbye" and walk with little lady steps to the schoolhouse.

Now she'll learn to stand in lines... and wait by the alphabet for hername to be called. She'll learn to tune her ears for the sounds of school bells... and deadlines... and she'll learn to giggle... and gossip...and look at the ceiling in a disinterested way when the little boy 'cross the aisle sticks out his tongue at her. And, now she'll learn to be jealous. And now she'll learn how it is to feel hurt inside. And now she'll learn how not to cry.

No longer will she have time to sit on the front porch steps on a summer day and watch an ant scurry across the crack in the sidewalk. Nor will she have time to pop out of bed with the dawn and kiss lilac blooms in the morning dew. No, now she'll worry about those important things... like grades and which dress to wear and whose best friendis whose. And the magic of books and learning will replace the magic of her blocks and dolls. And now she'll find new heroes.

For five full years now I've been her sage and Santa Claus and pal and playmate and father and friend. Now she'll learn to share her worship with her teachers... which is only right. But, no longer will I be the smartest, greatest man in the whole world. Today when that school bell rings for the first time...she'll learn what it means to be a member of the group...with all its privileges and its disadvantages too.

She'll learn in time that proper young ladies do not laugh out loud... or kiss dogs... or keep frogs in pickle jars in bedrooms... or even watch ants scurry across cracks in sidewalks in the summer.

Today she'll learn for the first time that all who smile at her are not her friends. And I'll stand on the front porch and watch her start out on the long, lonely journey to becoming a woman.

So, world, I bequeath to you today one little girl... in a crispy dress... with two blue eyes...and a flash of light blond hair that bounces in the sunlight when she runs. I trust you'll treat her well.

- Victor Buono

So ya I balled. Well then to top the morning off they played butterfly kisses and that's a guaranteed tear jerker. For the past two days I've been thinking about this poem. I realize that my baby girl is growing up and there's nothing to do about it but it still makes me sad. I love the age that she's at now. I love all the silly things she comes up with and how innocent everything is. I think starting school (yes I know it's still years away) is going to be alot harder than I ever imagined. It's the first step that my baby is really and truely growing up. So I've decided to really make everyday worth it. Play the silly games she wants to play, go jump on the trampoline when it's 110 outside.
The day before I heard this poem we had gone to the doctor. On our way the sky was kinda cloudy but then again it had been for a few days. I didn't think anything of it. We went inside and by time we were finished it was down pouring. I never have an umbrella when I need it, that would be way too convenient. So we sat on the porch of the building waiting for it to let up a little. And when I could tell we'd be standing there all day Em said let's go mommy let's run in the rain. At first I dredded the idea of getting soaked from head to toe. Not to mention I still had to put her in the car first then run around and get in. Well I could say no to her eager little face. So we ran in the rain. She tought it was the best thing ever. We got in the car soaking wet and she said Mommy that was so much fun lets do it again!! She giggled about it the whole way home. It's times like that that makes everything worth it.
I know one day she's not going to want to run in the rain with me or hide under the covers. I know I won't always be her best friend and the one she turns to when she is upset and I think that's the part that makes me sad. I want to always be the center of her world that can do no wrong. So I'm going to start cherishing more of the good stuff.

Exhausted!

This past weekend we went back to DFW. My mom had taken Emilee back with her the weekend before so I had to go to Arlington to steal her back. I know both Mom and Em really enjoy the time they get to spend together but it's so lonely at our house with out her. You don't realize how much life a child brings to the house until their gone for an extended period of time. Saturday we had Brooks's birthday party. I can hardly believe he's a year old. I'm sure Katie feels the same way, but it seems like just yesterday he(she) was born. Brooks was such a great birthday boy and it was so nice to see all the other babies. There were tons of people and Brooks got a thousand new toys.
So after a really long weekend we're finally settling back into our normal routine. It feels so nice to be home. This is my last week at work and as of next monday I'm a full time student again. I'm beyond nervous. I just hope I can do as good with these classes as I did this summer. I have high expectations for myself, which is going to mean a lot of studying!!
Well I better get back to my school stuff. We haven't even started and my teacher already gave us homework. What the heck!!

My twins

So after going through all the pictures on my computer I have come to the conclusion that my children could be twins. There has been the occasional picture that I think that they look really similar but now it's just gotten crazy. What do you think????

My little girl

So Friday (8/8/08) was Emilee's 3rd birthday and I thought I'd start my first blog with the story about her. It seems so crazy to me that it has already been 3 years, it just doesn't seem possible. Where does all the time go? So this is my story about Em's life this far.....

We found out we were pregnant with Emilee around 4:30 in the morning sometime mid November. Needless to say neither one of us got any more sleep that morning. I was both shocked and excited. For as long as I can remember I wanted to experience everything that came with being a mommy and I couldn't wait!! Casey and I had decided two months before that we'd try to get pregnant before he left for his deployment and if it happened it happened and if not we'd try once he got home. So for us it didn't take long. About 3 weeks after I found out I was pregnant Casey left for his first deployment leaving me sick and pregnant and two great danes behind in a city far away from home. It was really rough, especially feeling sick all the time.

During Casey's deployment I got to find out what we were having. I promised Casey that we'd find out together so I divised a plan. I went to the doctor and he did his whole sonogram thing and wrote down on a piece of paper wheather it was a boy or girl. Once I got home I logged on the the webcam and Casey and I opened it together. I can honestly say I was so much more nervous about this than about getting married. Thank god it was a girl!!! I don't really know how I would have reacted had it been a boy. Casey got home when I was around 6 months pregnant (when all the real fun began). He left with me being skinny and came back to a big o' belly.

Four days before Em was born I went to my last check up to see if I was dialated and was hoping to be induced that weekend. We my doctor did his exam he decided that I wasn't going to be able to have her naturally and that I was going to have to have a C-section. I was devistated. We had just finished our labor class and I was all ready to go through with this birthing thing natural. So this news just wasn't fitting in with my plans. I cried all day that day. So I went back to the doctor the next day for him to take a look at Em and make sure his choice was the right one. Needless to say he didn't change his mind. He scheduled my C-section for 11 am on Monday August 8, 2005.

Casey and I woke up that morning ready to go. I took a shower and got all ready so I could look half way decent for pictures. I was also starving!!! No food or liquids after mid-night and my c-section wasn't scheduled until 11. Are you kidding me! That's almost 12 hours for a big preggo girl not to eat.

So we get to the hospital too early and have to wait, and wait and wait. Finally a little after noon they finally wheeled me back into the surgery room (without Casey) and started getting me all prepped. By this point my heart was pounding so hard all I could think about was finally getting to see this little girl that had been inside me all this time. It was a bitter sweet moment. I couldn't wait to hold her in my arms but at the same time I was going to missing getting to feel all her movements everyday. Emilee got the hiccups several times a day and everytime I thought it was the most amazing feeling ever. That is definately something I'll never forget.

So after a spinal, a panic attack and some really good drugs that made my eyes itch like crazy. Emilee Taylor Davis was born at 1:00 pm. I will never forget when the Dr. held her over the curtain so I could see her. I was so shocked. She had a head full of black hair (Casey and I were both pretty bald). I think she started screaming the moment the cut into my stomach and from then on she didn't stop. She was so much more than I had ever imagined. There is no words to explain what it's like to see your newborn baby for the first time. Love at first sight. She weighed 7 lbs. 4 oz. and was 19 inches long. She was perfect.

The past 3 years Emilee has grown into such a wonderful little girl. She's the light of our lives and I thank god everyday for her. She makes everday worth living to the fullest. Emilee I love you more than you'll ever know, you'll always be my special baby. I love you baby and happy birthday!